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Abandon all hope, ye who enter here... of leaving sane! Mu-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha! Just kidding! I have no intent on causing you any kind of harm, and, in fact, spend a lot of my time trying to help others and make the world a better place! :-)
Just a few things you should know about me:
First: The essential philosophy I try to follow is summed up rather nicely by the sign I had placed in the 3D world I made called This Is It AKA ThisIsIt, in front of the virtual campus I created in it called the Knowledge Infusion/Enhancement Matrix: If you take, but do not give, learn, but do not teach, you suck!
Second: If you allow your greed, hatred and prejudices to over-ride your morality, what is it that differentiates you from any other animal? The fact that you collect luxury items and destroy the world for coloured pieces of paper that have no real value (
Third: Do you accept what other people tell you in the real world or on-line as the truth without verifying it for yourself? You're essentially allowing them to dictate what you believe and are little more than a slave. Get the facts for yourself. Learning how to learn is a good skill to have. And, while you're about it, teach others how, too! :-)
Addendum to the last one: Certain personality types, like those considered anti-social (which include psychopaths, sociopaths and narcissists), use tactics such as triangulation to deflect your attention away from something bad that they're doing onto someone else. The person could be there with them in the real world or on-line or could be elsewhere. In the latter case, you're told something about someone that probably isn't true and they believe you're gullible and/or stupid enough to accept their word for it, allowing them to control what you believe. If you find out that it's a lie, they'll laugh it off, claiming it was 'just a joke' or somesuch or try some other form of deflection. Besides, what kind of value do you place on someone who's simply trying to hurt other people's reputation or feelings? Your answer to that should be zero. Ignore what they say and move on. Their words, opinion and very existence is meaningless to you and it's likely that many other people already 'got their number.'
Fourth: I engage in video and audio sousveillance using hidden or obvious equipment. If you're in line-of-sight with me, it's almost guaranteed that you're being video and audio recorded and it might be streaming to the Internet, to an account not under the name of CyberWoLfman (for reasons that should be obvious), where many people can take a screenshot and do an image search (some dating apps have been doing this for years) to find out who you are. If you think you're anonymous and have a right to privacy in almost any place except
Addendum to the fourth one: If you're an employee who's screwing over or lying to a customer or patient and you try relying on the superior orders excuse or claim you're just following orders, remember who else in history tried using that as an excuse to not have to worry about things like right and wrong . . . the nazis! Are you truly okay with having their same moral code or being seen as emulating them? Do your parents, neighbours, fellow employees and the school you graduated from know this about you? If not, they should be informed of it! For those who think such information is difficult to find (the genuine or bespoke information and not garbage created to get money out of suckers) or even learning who they are by just doing simple things like digging up criminal and civil case files, employment records, marriage licenses, school records, birth certificates, property records and so on, think again! LOL Those who know how to do this kind of thing don't even need your first or last name and can find out who you are with various serarch criteria, refining it to the point where you're caught like a single fish swimming in a school of fishes!
This site is unique and likely seen as old-school. It's considered by some to be a Web 1.0 site (Web version 1?), is coded using nothing but a text editor, so there's variety and all the pages don't look the same, there's not a single ad or anything for sale here, it's practically littered with help pages and this is one of the few remaining examples of what the Web used to look like.
How many Web sites can say the same? So, please give out this Web site's URL or link back to it, if you appreciate that sort of thing. :-)
* Where you can sometimes find me: Although it's probably addictive and seen by many as a waste of time, I like to play the old City of Heroes game (but, they're frequently adding new things to it), which is now free to play on City of Heroes Homecoming. More information here: City of Heroes Homecoming Server Tips. Some of my characters are named ViRaLsPiKeS, CLiMaTe BReAkDoWn, GrEEd KiLLeD EaRtH, LaW of MiRRorS and Do The Right Thing in my usual futile attempt to help make the world a better place by teaching people, but . . . it's probably a waste of time for me, because, along with many of my other help pages (like the one I made about Climate Change AKA Climate Breakdown, Sea Level Rise, Global Warming and Fossil Fuels), few people read the names and think about the problem and even fewer care.
To make it easier for mobile device users, I've made this Web site rechable via a Web browser capable of using emojis as a URL (the Opera Web browser is one of them)! :-)
You simply put one of the following sets of emojis (they look different for different operating systems or the app or program you're using) in the address bar AKA address field of the Web browser (hold your mouse over each of the following emojis to see the name which each emoji can be found with by doing a search on your smartphone or tablet, unless they're in your recent emojis section):
The first set of emojis makes more sense if you can remember the name of this Web site:
Easier than typing in cyberwolfman.com, for some people, at least? ;-)
I'm thankful I never used a CMS for my Web site, since some of them can't add emojis! LOL It isn't very forward-thinking if you use something that you can't code what you want into it until it gets around to getting up-to-date with what you need to do with it . . . But, maybe you can use a text editor to accomplish what you want to do? :-)
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* Important note: Regarding the Covid-19 pandemic, please read the 3rd and 4th paragraphs, which tells you how it spreads in a way that isn't known to the general public, and I provide information to show it's true here: Which is only one of the things I do to try to help others and the world.
You're welcome. :-) But, remember to tell others (or, just give out the link to this page), to help them, too!
One of my latest pages: Climate Change AKA Climate Breakdown, Sea Level Rise, Global Warming and Fossil Fuels.
Links for this page:
Yes, I need to move some of this stuff to other pages! Always making more work for myself, using this page as a staging area . . .
Tell others about this Web site.
I met a psychopath! (Sidenote)
Lying red flags (sidenote II).
A quick intro of this Website.
Things I do to try to help others and the world.
Things I used to do to help others.
Site changes and (maybe) future plans.
It may be time for me to give up . . .
A (somewhat) Quick Introduction:
You've found the real Cyberwolfman and yes, that's my real name and legal name. Some of the other cyberwolfmen you may have seen on the Internet aren't me.
Look at the world today. See the harm greed's done to the environment and to people around the world and ask yourself if that's a good thing or a bad thing and act accordingly. If you don't do anything, then who will? The corporations or the politicians (who are supposed to serve the people, but, many of them are owned by the corporations)?
How's that worked out for the entire planet the last few decades?
I have a very strong moral code, although I feel as though I'm nearly alone in that . . . But, I've lived through a lot, read a lot and had . . . rather unique experiences in my life and suffered more than many who live in my area and all of that has made me different. How different? I'm more different on the inside than on the outside, which is saying something. You can blame humans for that.
Now that most of the worst people have gone to another Web site . . .
If you read the entirety of even this front door page, you're likely to learn things that most people never will. Be prepared. I haven't been considered normal since the day I was born and never felt like I fit in anywhere and this site and my views reflect that.
And, now, there are even fewer people continuing to read. ;-) This was by intention. Few people would understand and teaching people certain things isn't something I'm comfortable with . . . If it's any consolation, by continuing to read, you mark yourself as special in a way few would ever understand and . . . You might benefit in a way you couldn't have ever imagined. :-)
While I've learned much, I'll speak openly about some of it, but, some things I don't say clearly and I engage in obfuscation, subterfuge, misdirection and some minor instances of something similar to sleight of hand. What isn't readily apparent, will, in time, become exceptionally clear within your mind. Again, this is by intention. Among my other oddities, I was playing chess by the time I was four and learned about the spy cell system and discovered a better way of networking the communications within it several years before the events of 9/11 AKA 9-11. I also frequently think of new ways to use things I've learned. One small clue you can see here? This (and the other Web pages) were coded using a text editor. Notice the layout and the unique headers. I can do much more, but . . . Older Web browsers wouldn't support it and some of you lot are still using Web browsers older than most Web sites! LOL
Although you'll doubt some things I tell you until you learn to confirm the truth for yourself, trust me on at least one thing for now; While lying, to me, is abhorrent and not something I ever want to do and I absolutely loathe liars on a level you wouldn't believe (for starters, they're betraying your trust and insulting you at the same time by making you think you're too stupid to spot their lie), it's far safer for you and for me if I hide some of what I'm trying to teach behind a thin veil which shouldn't be too difficult to part if you do your best.
If you want to be formal, I'm reverend doctor Cyberwolfman and I've been both for years. And, before you ask, you can't ask the things I've Piled Higher and Deeper! LOL However, if you've ever met me in person, you'd know I'm not the formal type and prefer to wear casual clothing. Suits don't appeal to me, and usually, people who speak formally to you and/or wear suits are probably the very same people who screw over people for fun and profit.
Also, be wary if they compliment you or feign interest in you or something you're wearing or said. They're likely trying to sell you something or distract you from something you should be paying attention to such as not giving you a receipt for something they know is going to break down quickly to setting up an appointment two months away while sending an e-prescription to a pharmacy that'll only last for one month, so, you won't know about it until you get it. A diversionary tactic could include members of the staff within a few feet of your exam room talking to each other as though your needs (such as setting up the next appointment) are important, as they're aware of the fact that you're within hearing range but are outside of your line of sight and behaving as if what they're doing is normal for them (all the world's a stage and all the men and women, merely players). And, yes, I notice these things and others! Only writing me half of a needed prescription once might be considered a mistake, but, doing it multiple times? Congratulations on making me even less trusting of people than before and lowering your reputation even further!
The majority of the clothing I wear is the cheapest I can find, including shoes that don't fit me very well (at the local discount store chain, they only go up to size 14 wide so I have pain with each step I take).
If you meet me in public, keep in mind that, despite the fact that my appearance is different from what's considered normal (which, in human society, seems to be a good excuse for harassment and violence and sometimes, worse and yes, I've been on the receiving end of the worse things multiple times), I'm a nicer guy on the inside than most of the people you're ever likely to meet, since I absolutely refuse to be the kind of monster I see most humans as.
What's in the bag I often carry? Among other things, a chessboard, a water quality tester, a radiation badge, a radiation tester and . . . other things which would raise eyebrows, make people's jaws drop and knowledge of them is on a need-to-know basis and you don't have a need to know! But, Felix the cat was a great teacher! LOL
I met a psychopath! (Sidenote)
One of the aforementioned human monsters I met recently displayed ASP (Antisocial Personality) disorder traits (some doctors believe psychopaths are just one type who fits this description), which included:
Projection (they attempt to convince others of what they, themselves, were doing);
The specifics?
They repeatedly lied to me, claiming I didn't do something (namely forwarding information to them via e-mail), despite the fact that I had evidence on my phone that I did. (Along with the e-mail app saying they were sent, another employee there told me they had got the e-mails I sent to the store's e-mail address.) This was also a very stupid lie, as I'm a major tech nerd that anyone can know for certain within a few seconds of meeting me, unless they're literally blind. Been using computers since at least the TRS-80 (it had a cassette tape drive) and Apple IIe (it used a floppy disk drive and the floppy disk was actually floppy). Insinuating that I don't know how to correctly send an e-mail? Really?? LOL
When I moved about 20 feet or so away from the toxic person to a table to let someone else get up to the counter to try to get their business taken care of, I was staring into my phone's screen in the process of sending yet another e-mail with the information in it in an effort to appease the psychopathic woman (which is a wasted effort, as a psychopath and many other mentally ill with antisocial personality disorders are never satisfied with anything you do and, I'll admit, I was growing more frustrated and not just because, with my large hands (they're proportional to the my feet and I can't find shoes in my size at the local discount store chain) trying to tap the right letters on a little cell phone was absolutely no joy) and I mumbled "I can see why people snap" and she asked "what did you say?" loud enough to be heard by everyone there, and, when I didn't respond (trolls hate it when you ignore them), she said in the same loud voice that she had a gun and a concealed permit to carry it, which is when I looked up and saw she was looking right at me.
My situational awareness, which is usually either yellow or orange depending on my current emotional state, where I am and who and what's around me (look up situational awareness colour codes and, as some say, keep your wits about you, if you want to stay alive as even noticing someone who's standing nearby who suddenly shifts their weight or glances quickly behind you could be the only warning you get before you get attacked or killed), was orange after entering the store and instantly recognising her (I was also trying very hard to not let my face show that I had recognised her, as many people can attest what happens when a malicious person knows that you see them as a threat, hoping she wouldn't do anything violent or say anything hurtful in order to make me look bad if I complained about it, which she would probably use as an excuse to do even more, because that's how people are) but quickly switched to nearly full-on red and I glanced around without being too obvious about it for adequate cover (true cover is in very short supply in many places of business, especially if your attacker has something more powerful than a .38) and my heart started to pound fast in my chest!
Then she said I was threatening to shoot people in that same loud voice. There were about eight people in the store in hearing range of that.
I'm no lawyer, but, isn't what she said slander (my appearance was definitely not threatening, as my hands were in plain view in front of me, one hand holding my small cell phone and the other one hovering over it, and, I was wearing a peace sign around my neck and had a hat on with the words "stop the hate" written on it and was dressed in shorts and a T-shirt with no obvious way to hide even a small pistol, and I should be on the store's surveillance video footage, as there were a few surveillance cameras that should've had me in their field of view)?
Okay, maybe somebody could hide a very tiny pistol hidden in a 'prison wallet,' but, you'd think that even a tiny pistol would hurt very, very badly, be extremely obvious when you pulled it out and be very difficult to use, covered with . . . Eww! Okay, I am not going there! And, before you ask, neither are you!
Isn't it illegal or considered mob action or attempt to incite a mob to violence or something like that or to scare people with the threat of gun violence or attempt to get people to gang up on a non-violent person who obviously isn't threatening anyone? You would think so, anyway . . . And, wouldn't the person and company who hired her and trained her be at least partly responsible for what she did? Maybe her parents should also be considered at least partly responsible, if they were supposed to teach her the difference between right and wrong.
The people there looked at me (a big guy with grey hair who was primarily focused on trying to read the teeny-tiny text on his little cell phone) and ignored me.
I left the store, went to another store where there were people around me (who could witness if she followed me with the intent to do me more than the emotional harm she had already caused me), called the cops and told them what happened.
As I said above, I recognized her. She was one of my neighbours. She lived within a few houses from me (earlier, her tall friend in blue coveralls (whose name started with a M) threw used motor oil in my yard (I saw him walking to another yard two houses down from me with what looked like a drip pan and I went there to take a picture of the wet grass I saw there and I heard him laughing at me behind my back as he sat in a car near that spot when I turned around to walk back home, but, maybe he saw the BB pistol I had stashed in my back pocket out of fear that people who do bad things to others may do other bad things such as acts of violence to them and if I feared for my life, getting stung by a BB might get them to stop, or, at the very least, yell, which might've attracted the attention of other neighbours), another time, he handed me a tag from a package of underwear after he left a Walmart store (which made me wonder why he had it and why I didn't see the package of underwear it should've been in), and on another occasion when I was riding my bicycle, sped up in his little blue car to get ahead of me in order to turn right in front of me so I had no choice but to stop really fast or run into the front of his car and likely be killed from being crushed under its wheels and, I'm hoping he did it accidentally by not seeing me, but, if so, I hope he paid more attention after that, since there were a lot of little kids living in that area, and, if he couldn't see a guy who's over six feet tall . . .), but, didn't let her know that I remembered her.
(For those who need help in remembering what people look like in order to give a better description of them, learn to see far more than just the basic facial geometry, hair style or eye colour (or colours, as some people have eyes of different colours, but, eye colour, like hair style or hair colour (the latter can be changed as quickly as putting on a wig or cutting off the hair in a van or public restroom and quickly using a hair dye) can be changed). Remember the height of someone (there's a reason there's a height guide alongside the doors of many convenience stores), look for physical details (some could be very small) which might be unique and can't be changed quickly such as permanent tattoos (learn to tell the difference between temporary tattoos (which could be put on in a matter of seconds using a device and wiped off with soap and water and might be used to get people looking for something that's no longer on them) and permanent tattoos), scars, birthmarks, the habitual movements they make, their gestures, their accent, their choice of words (although the latter four could be an act) and so on. Those details might also help police in identifying someone, un-like clothes, which can simply be changed or, if it's a shirt or coat, be taken off and stashed somewhere, pushed into a garbage can or dumpster, or given to someone, which would get them nabbed and the bad person might escape the area if the police think they had caught them or spotted them, in which case, multiple units would converge on the spot of the sighting. How many things like that do I know? Some things are written on my Web pages, but, be thankful that I have a strong moral code (but most of humanity doesn't and those who've read enough history or have seen what people do whenever they think they can get away with something can verify that) and prefer to use my knowledge to help others and make the world better and safer.)
I can only hope they investigated her, took away her gun (or guns, if she had more than one, which is increasingly more likely these days) and other weapons, and hopefully, took her some place where she could get the help she seemed to be in urgent need of. I also hope that she didn't have children in her home, as they're frequently the first victims of people like that . . .
Part of me was surprised that when she looked at me, she didn't realise that others in my life from as far back as grade school had tried to do similar things to me. Guess she never learned how to properly size up a mark or assumed that everyone she went after would be the exact same. Or, didn't care . . . Believing that I was a fool and judging me solely on my appearance, she proved herself to be one.
If she and her tall friend are both mentally ill, they might be doing other bad things, such as triangulation, where someone says something bad about a 3rd party to someone, believing that the person (or people) they say it to won't try to confirm it and will believe their lie whole-heartedly. Those who spread rumours are haters and liars (many times, sad to say, it's because someone is different from them in some way, so, they might be intolerant or an outright racist). Anyone who spreads rumours without confirming them (should you really be saying bad things about others you've named (or identified in some way to others so there's no doubt as to who you mean) behind their backs and won't those you're talking to (or whatever deity you worship or karma) judge you based on that?), marks themselves as a gullible fool. Those who believe them, mark themselves as an idiot who's likely to believe anything (and in the latter two cases will encourage others to try to scam you).
Something else that concerns me about them . . . Do they do these things because I'm different, and, if so, have they done them to others who were different from them? Those they treat in such a way might grow to hate those who are like them, and, possibly, cause them to donate money to hate groups who oppose them. Will their actions result in others losing their lives? You'd hope not, but, I also realize that if they're mentally ill, they may not have any empathy for anyone or care who gets hurt as a result of their actions and/or words.
Introduction, Continued:
I have severe social anxiety (not shyness (okay, maybe a little), but, more like extreme terror of other people), PTSD and am hard-of-hearing (my left ear is totally nerve dead and it was one of those worse things).
So, I'm usually twitchy unless I do something to prevent that before I leave home (but, just in case, please don't make any fast movements or loud noises when near me) and very un-trusting (because of multiple things done to me). If you're nice to me, I'll be nice to you, but, if you're an a-hole or betray my trust or even lie to me (like some healthcare professionals frequently do, who judge me by my appearance and apparently don't realize that the red flags of lying are known to many), I'll take it personally and will never trust you or anyone who works where you work again and will also be certain to tell others of the way you treat people, but then, so will your fellow employees and friends, especially if they can use that to make themselves look better than you . . .
Perhaps, this will also get back to your parents and reflect badly on them because they were the ones who raised you and were supposed to teach you the difference between right and wrong. On top of that, if you read the Bible, God considers liars to be an abomination (Proverbs 12:22) and you're going to burn in Hell (Revelation 21:8, and, it's not Revelations, which Hollywood thinks is the right spelling, and, can script writers truly be illiterate, or, at the very least, never opened a Bible and looked at the table of contents to see the list of books of the Bible?).
But, maybe you'll use the superior orders excuse that was oh-so-popular in Nuremberg during the Nazi war crimes trials, believing that doing bad things to others is morally a-ok if you can claim that you were just following orders? Is being compared with a jack-booted, goose-stepping, swastika-kissing armed Nazi thug and having the same moral code something you and your fellow employees and your employer(s) (perceived guilt by association and possibly shared knowledge of your actions while not doing anything to stop you and failing to make amends to your victims) comfortable with?
I know where you'll be spending eternity, although it might not've dawned on you, yet . . .
Lying Red Flags (sidenote II)
Just a few of those lying red flags (situations, cultures, a person's personality type and other factors are some of the things that may skew the reliability of the following) are comfort gestures, distancing from the spot they told the lie (watch the infamous president Nixon speech to see both, and, I have a video of a nurse who did both), saying things like um and uh as they come up with it as they're talking, microexpressions (they're fast, but, watch a video at a slow speed or frame-by-frame advance (with some video players, it's the E key) to better see them), making a gesture after they say something instead of during, shaking their head, inflection, momentary hesitancy and/or quickly-spoken statements, being vague, talking in a higher tone, darting eyes and/or maintaining eye contact (to see if you believe them, but, in some places, that's considered rude or a sign of aggression), smirking smiles, repeating words or phrases, distancing language and lack of contractions (the last two along with the comforting gestures were just some from president Clinton), et cetera.
And, did you seriously think you were the very first person who ever lied to me in my entire life? If you see me in the real world, look at me and ask yourself how many saw me and thought how easy it would be to fool me. You're not the first. You're not even in the first 3,000! LOL So, who's the real fool? Usually, it's the person who judges someone solely by their appearance and assumes that they're what they appear to be.
Introduction, Continued II:
Kind of an FYI, here, I usually engage in sousveillance by video and audio recording when I'm out, most of the time by using hidden equipment (unless the battery needs re-charged). Those in the DoD know what my top aptitude area scores were in on the ASVAB (my lowest score was 94 and I took it when I was stressed out) and I've built a pirate radio station a few inches on a side decades ago.
But, since I have a strong belief in privacy rights (unlike most other people and corporations, and I taught people how to secure their e-mails with encryption back in the 1990s, several years before Snowden) I usually only do it if I suspect I'm getting screwed over (or am about to be) or if they have a history of doing so to me in the past.
This is primarily the case with healthcare professionals who have a questionable moral code (you seriously don't think that I'll be suspicious when you tell me that the cost for the lenses alone in a pair of eyeglasses are $600??), which reflects badly on both their employer, fellow employees and others in their field.
One healthcare professional whose name started with an E even claimed they had never heard of Big Ben (technically, only the bell is named Big Ben, now, but most people also call the clock and clock tower the same name, as it makes more sense than calling it the clock or the clock tower) in London, despite the fact that it's the world's most famous clock, is over 150 years old and has been used in location-establishing shots in television shows and movies for decades! Phenomenally stupid enough to think people are that gullible or mentally ill to the point where they believe they can lie to whoever they want with no consequences and if someone complains about it, they'll attempt to convince the patient they're wrong for complaining? Or, perhaps both? You decide.
Other differences in my appearance: I have a permanently damaged back, knees (
Why I am the way I am. Since I don't know how much time I have left (does anyone, really?) and with the kind of healthcare I have (you get a set amount for glasses, but, the places they send you to charge you a very high amount just for the lenses) is the kind where it (so far) takes doctor's offices over a decade just to make a copy of my medical records (and I'm still waiting) while the health concerns I have are ignored while I live in constant pain so . . . I felt I should try to explain myself a little and as briefly as I can. Although I realize that very few people care about anyone but themselves, there might be a few who do care about others and have wondered about me. Hope you can be patient, because this isn't easy for me and . . . I don't really like the memories it brings up. If you don't like hearing about bad things happening to others, or, like many, don't care, keep scrolling.
Inside, I'm like a puppy who's been kicked and beaten every day for as long as it can remember. But, it's more than that . . . Buried extremely deep within me is a small child who sits in a tiny, heavy box, curled up in as tight a ball as possible who shakes in fear and tries really, really hard to keep himself from screaming endlessly in terror. All the physical and emotional abuse he's suffered plays out in a repeating loop within his mind. Everything from when he was very little which included incidents like a father who kidnapped him and hit him so hard he bounced off the opposite wall of a room, another who hit him in the side of the head with a baseball bat, causing permanent severe damage inside, having things screamed at him like "I wish you were never born," being beaten almost every day (and sometimes multiple times each day) with things like yardsticks (until they broke) and belts (they liked using the buckle end and it wasn't just the butt they hit when they wanted to hurt him) and being attacked with a thick wooden board and an iron skillet, and he wondered during the worst times if this was the time he would die and, if he was still awake after, and could move, hid somewhere and cried from the pain as he bled and tried not to move too much, fearing broken bones. His earliest memory was of holding a bobbypin in an electrical outlet, unable to let go and feeling his fingers burn and hearing a woman who may've been his mother laughing as he screamed. When he tried to draw, he drew people without arms because he was never hugged and didn't want to be and those who approached him made him want to scream and run away.
People talk of monsters in movies as if they're frightening, but, I've known since I was very little that humans are the true monsters. To me, humans are every monster you've ever heard of including every serial killer, and every cruel and sadistic soldier who believed what he was doing was morally okay no matter what it was all rolled into one. That is how I see people and I'm stuck on a planet with billions of them.
In my life, I've been poisoned (one time was in the military), been the victim of food tampering (which is a felony, and, in some places in the United States, the criminal can get put in prison for 20 years, and, in Florida, it's a first-degree felony under the Florida Anti-Tampering Act, which can get you a 30 year prison sentence even for the attempt, conspiring, changing the label, or claiming that something hadn't been tampered with) other ways, was physically and emotionally abused in school daily and often. On the bus and in classes, I was the one who sat in back because I learned I couldn't trust people behind me (and still don't) or anywhere, any time, really . . . Happy school memories? Maybe one involving people, but I was more happier being alone and reading books.
Because of all the injuries (more permanent ones were the results of incidents in the military from those I was supposed to trust of higher rank than me), I don't walk that well, have next to zero social skills and rarely interact with people in public and am in an almost constant state of fear, the level of which is so great that drinking herbal teas and alcohol, using relaxation techniques and drugs like Xanax is like trying to put out a wildfire with a squirt gun AKA water pistol. Nothing I seem to do or say is right in anyone's eyes and even my appearance is wrong to, well, pretty much everyone. But, I try to wear funny T-shirts and sticky patches on my baseball cap which might get a smile out of others.
Some look at me and convince themselves that I'm a fool or an idiot. That's okay with me. I actually prefer people to under-estimate me. They're not on their guard, they make silly mistakes that're easy to spot and tell lies that even a child can see through. I simply play dumb and give them more rope or line (whichever analogy you prefer), as I video-record them. The best use for such videos is posting them on-line under a different name, and, when someone asks about a company or store, give them the link or URL to the video (but, don't use the store name or employee name(s) in the title or description)! One of the doctors I showed the video (complete with audio) of one of the staff lying to my face was very shocked by what he saw, but, I told him this was pretty much normal behaviour for healthcare professionals to some of us. Never saw that member of the staff again, after that . . . Tempted to give out URLs to some of the higher-ups in some of the other places I've had similar or even worse encounters, but, I've been getting such great footage! LOL
For many people, going through some of the above seems to turn them into psychopaths, but, with me, I guess it made me feel more (hearing about unfairness and those who hurt innocents affects me the most) and want to help others as much as I can (some examples: Things I do to try to help others and the world).
Un-like some people, I don't do such things for fame (which would draw more attention to me), to make themselves or their organization or company look better to the public or truly expect any kind of reward and about the only thing I've ever asked for on my pages was maybe, if they could afford it, to donate a dollar (very few did) or to tell others about the page or site, hoping it would help still more people.
Wouldn't know what to do with lots of money (and would be afraid it'd make me a target) and with my extreme social anxiety I wouldn't be able to handle fame.
Can I be helped or get better? I've got extremely little hope of that (and hope sets me up for more disappointment, so, no hope in me, not even a little), and that little kid (my inner child?) which is inside a thick metal box is never coming out, as all the memories of the thousands of things he's suffered through has played in an ever-repeating loop within his mind for several years (and each new one is added to it).
But, maybe you can try to convince others to not be so intolerant, cruel and sadistic, which might keep others from going through the same thing and quite possibly, becoming the monsters I've seen throughout my life.
I guess . . . that's it. There were worst things that I'll keep to myself, but, you might be able to figure out some of it if you read a few of the Web pages here, like my Short Stories page. You can find more (and likely boring for you) details from my life here: Who Am I?
Life Rules
Public notice: By interacting with me, anyone else or simply living, you agree to be bound (whether you've read them or not, just like all the other laws, rules and user agreements out there) by the Life Rules AKA LifeRules, created to (hopefully!) make the world a better place.
Because, quite frankly, it can use all the help it can get!
What's real?
Okay, before you start down my little rabbit hole to try some of the other Web pages here, just so you know, even if you don't have any proof that something exists, it doesn't mean that it's not real (ask any physicist!). Am I talking about deities, angels, little green men from Mars, lizardmen, invisible watchers (not to be confused with some people's ability to remotely activate your smart devices' microphone and camera) or all of the above and follow it with a couple of hashtags (AKA octothorpes AKA pound signs AKA hexes) such as #i'mreadytobelieve (or #imreadytobelieve or #i'm_ready_to_believe or #im_ready_to_believe)? That would be telling! ;-)
Perhaps, more importantly, you should ask yourself if it's better to have someone give you the answers or to figure it out on your own.
Didn't quite break my NDA, yet . . . But, I'm tempted to give you . . . AATIP (a typo?) for part of the answer. *cough* UAPTF *cough* Maybe I should look into that vaccination thing?
Side note for coders, if you don't see the underscores you type (invisible underscore problem), use Ctrl+mouse scroll wheel. This also works with some Web browsers on Web pages with small text (but, it'll change the way the browser shows the page). You're welcome. :-)
And, yes, that was an example! LOL
Are We Alone in the Universe?
Just a thought . . . Imagine, if you will, a more technologically-advanced species wants to test a lesser-developed species to see how it behaves with and treats members of its own species, how responsible it would be if given its own world upon which it depends on for its survival and how it treats lesser-developed species who share its home. Wouldn't it keep them from having conclusive proof of their existence, as that knowledge might influence how they behave? This could include shielding their area of space from any of their communications in a more advanced version of a Faraday cage and limiting how they see the universe.
Imagine, also, that this more technologically-advanced species has the capability of monitoring all that every single person on the planet does, says and thinks (medical researchers have already made significant progress in this field of study).
Too far-fetched, you say? But, isn't that essentially what humans do with animals, complete with artificial habitats and limiting their encounters with people?
Now, think about what you've done to others and the rest of the world (including the environment) and imagine how it not only makes you appear but all of the members of your community, your country and even your entire species!
Of course, there are humans who believe they're the only intelligent life in the multiverse (multiple universes), despite the fact that there are hundreds of billions of galaxies in just this universe and even the Milky Way galaxy has hundreds of billions of stars. Any human who believes that they're the only intelligent species in the universe or multiverse is egocentric on a (dare I say it?) cosmic scale! LOL
Quick intro about this Web site
If this is your first visit to my Web site, welcome! Some of the latest things that I have been up to or comment about can be found on my latest blog pages. You can also find me on Facebook.
If this page doesn't look right to you, check out the If a Web Page Doesn't Look Right to You page.
Was going to put up some really cool coding tricks in this, but, didn't want to crash anyone's Web browser . . .
➢ Attention mobile device users: This and many other pages on this Web site have not been optimised for small screens. A high percentage of these Web pages were made in the 1990s and they're all done using a text editor, as I'm a very old school coder, and I think that Web sites which use templates that make all the pages look the same except for some different text and pictures are . . . well, boring and soulless.
Yes, I know, your mobile device is supposed to have 'high resolution', but, it is still a small screen. View this Web page on a regular monitor to see the difference. You have been duped into accepting something which you thought was a good deal but, it turned out to be something else. Wise up. School's out.
On the plus side, the majority of the Web pages on this site have dark or black backgrounds which should have less drain on many mobile devices than if you were visiting Web sites with white backgrounds (which, oddly, many of the 'mobile friendly' Web pages are), since they have the RGB cranked up to 100% to produce the white colour. Why is it considered friendly to drain someone's battery faster?
What I try to do to help
I try to do the right thing, in both the real world and on-line, by helping people when I can, wherever I can. And, with this Web site, I have made help pages and give information. I try to live by the golden rule, when very few others seem to care about anyone but themselves (their main motivations are usually greed, power and what they think they can get with it and use your imagination on the latter) and are only nice to others when they want something out of them. Even on the Help Cyberwolfman page, I try to help others by providing links to places they can help those in need without having to pay a single penny. At least I can say I do my best to do what's right! :-)
COVID-19 Vaccine Fact Sheet. Although it's written for providers, it's information you can use. Just remember though: If you've already been infected (even if you don't have symptoms, yet, you still might have already been infected and you can spread it even before you have symptoms), it's too late to get vaccinated! Many have died in the hospital, after finally realizing they should've gotten vaccinated. But, by then, it was too late for them. If you want a tip that might save your life and you're willing to listen, when the more infectious variants start up, if you absolutely don't have to go out or travel, don't. If you go to an event, visit with family or feel the urge to go someplace (especially don't go by aeroplane when the more infectious strains come out, because if airline employees like flight attendants, pilots and baggage handlers get sick, flights will be delayed or canceled and you could be sitting in an airport with many other people (for several hours or even days!) who could've been infected), you could infect others or be infected yourself (even if nobody's showing symptoms).
As for the six-foot distancing rule . . . it's rubbish, as Kimberly Prather and Linsey Marr showed that a particle as small as five microns (and anything larger than that was believed to be filtered out by the mucus in your throat and nostrils) can travel hundreds of feet, so, if you were wearing a mask, didn't touch any surfaces and still got Covid-19, now you know how. The CDC? They only admit to it on one page, this one: Scientific Brief: SARS-CoV-2 Transmission, whereas their How COVID-19 Spreads page (which claims you can only get COVID-19 via inhalation if you're within 6 feet) doesn't mention that very important fact (last checked on June 20th, 2021). But, I will, because I think it's important enough to tell you about it. Don't people's lives and health matter to the CDC?
In regards to the five micron size: particles that size and smaller are considered aerosols (which is how measles, chickenpox and tuberculosis spreads), but, many sites won't tell you about that particle size, which I think is important for people to know as it might keep them from getting sick and possibly dying by relying on something that doesn't stop something that small or smaller.
When will COVID stop? SARS-CoV-2 (which is what caused COVID-19 AKA coronavirus disease 2019) and others like it will be around for a very long time, and, like other viruses, it changes, adapts and mutates into variants of itself in order to survive. Once infected, the only thing medical science can do was to try to manage their symptoms AKA symptom management, which is the kind of care you'll find in many countries with an inferior healthcare system such as the United States, especially if you're over 70. Unless you're rich and/or powerful (which, in the more corrupt countries, was equal to the same thing) . . . Want an example of a not-so-hypothetical situation? A very sick person goes into a hospital expecting to have their life saved. The shortage of staff is so bad, that, if the healthcare professionals give them the care they need, at least a few other people will die. So, what do you think happens in such a situation when the staff figure that out? Here's a better question: What happens if it's you? Don't think it's possible? Look up triage. Factors which staff use to decide who gets time spent on them and how much include how likely someone will die, how effective treating them will be and their remaining natural lifespan. If there's severely diminished resources, expect triage to more closely resemble that of the military's model in regards to code black or expectant (you're expected to die) cases.
COVID conspiracies, disinformation agitprop and fake news: Don't believe the rumours. Get the facts by doing fact-checking. Isolated incidents and manufactured lies are most definitely not factual. Like I said above, if you spread fake rumours, you mark yourself as a liar. If you spread them, you mark yourself as a gullible fool. If you believe them, you mark yourself as an idiot who's likely to believe anything (and in the latter two cases will encourage others to try to scam you). Do yourself a favour and choose to be none of the above!
Now, as for some people claiming that president Biden acted like a dictator when he said that people had to get vaccinated . . . Mandatory vaccinations for diseases in America date back to 1777 when George Washington ordered troops to get vaccinated (called variolation back then, and, a little trivia for you, the word vaccine got its name from the latin word for cow (vacca), and it started by giving people a little cowpox, as it was discovered that milkmaids who got it never got smallpox) for smallpox (he even encouraged his wife, Martha Washington, to get it) and the very same politicians who claimed that it was wrong to force people to get vaccinated also forced people (including schoolchildren) to get vaccinated against mumps, meningitis, rubella and varicella (which causes chickenpox). So . . . It's okay for those politicians to do it, but, it's not okay for the president of the United States? Words like hypocrisy come to mind . . .
On a limited budget and need to organize your spending? Download or print up this budget template I made for you. :-)
Having problems sleeping (most people do, except those who don't care about anyone but themselves) and could use some tips? Check out the Sleep Tips and REMville page.
Need a laugh? Try my Laugh Machine page (one of the few pages I made which requires JavaScript to work right, which I usually kept off for years because of the pop-up ads everywhere). Created it back in the mid-1990s, when we had to use eight characters or less for files.
Want something to read and only have a few minutes? Check out my Short Stories page.
Want to read some inspiring or funny quotes? Visit the Cool Quotes page.
A hidden surprise that few see! Feeling nostalgic for the older micro$haft windoze operating systems? Anyone who types anything in the address bar above after the / that isn't the name of a file on my site will see it when they try to go to it. If you prefer a link, try my Custom 404 Page.
And, yes, I should put the above on its own page . . . *Sighs* Always making more work for myself.
Things I used to do to help others
I paid people to learn! Gave cash prizes to the top trivia scorers in my 3D world's (This Is It) trivia game every month for years using my own money to encourage people to learn, even though I was (and have been most of my adult life) living under the FPL AKA Federal Poverty Level. Why? Because I thought it was more important to help others than buy myself things I really didn't need.
Created a virtual campus (my 3D world was made years before places like Second Life existed) called the Knowledge Infusion and Enhancement Matrix in the above-mentioned 3D world where people could learn a vast multitude of subjects all for free and at their own pace. In front of it, I made a sign which read "If you take, but do not give, learn, but do not teach, YOU SUCK!" I never got the whole greed thing . . . What's the goal, to get everything you can possibly want in life and become bored? LOL
Created Web pages like the New User Guide for City of Villains (it used to be a separate game from City of Heroes with no way to switch and was the only way I could play a mastermind with controllable minions), a Character Creation Help Guide and a City of Heroes and City of Villains Enhancement Comparison Guide, which might still be valid for the Homecoming City of Heroes game, but, there, you can now get SOs (Single-Origin enhancements) as early as level two . . .
Site changes and (maybe) future plans
No more ads! My brief attempt to generate a few dollars to help pay for this Web site with a few ads here and there failed. Not a single penny was earned, so . . . No more ads! Or at least, until I find something that actually works.
Went back to the better front door look: The minimalist look was cramping my style. But, I took the flash movie off this page (it's now on the FAQ page) and am limiting the graphics to very small pictures.
* If you live in America, and have a slow and expensive Internet service, please check out the The American Internet is Slow and Expensive because the Telecom Industry is treating Americans as a Captive Audience page. Used to have it all here, but, putting it on its own page makes more sense.
Coming soon: More Web pages! Just got done organizing the VidScans (honest movie reviews and honest TV show reviews) Web page, so, taking a break. Hey, I got something done, at least! ;-)
The more immediate plans include a Web page with pictures of some of the events and places I went to (after I took some medication and drank some alcohol) the south Florida tattoo expo (it was nice to have met all of you!), a couple of pages with reviews of some renaissance fairs (Camelot days and the Florida Renaissance Festival) complete with pictures and video, a visit to the Coral Castle, along with a few other surprises!
* While grateful for what I have (if you've ever been homeless (I've been homeless twice) you'd know how grateful I am to have a roof over my head), I could use a few basic essentials . . .
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I'm hoping to catch up with stuff after I can see small details again (like text in a text editor or icons and other details in a video editor) without pain.
* Also would like a pair of new shoes that fit me and don't hurt to walk in. Unfortunately, I can't find them at the local discount chain stores, where they only sell up to '14 wide' which is too small for my feet!
* If I was allowed a 3rd thing, it would be a new kitchen sink.
* So many people want riches and power, but me? I just want to be able to read without pain, have shoes that I can wear that don't hurt and have a kitchen sink I can use! LOL
* Although, technically, not a luxury, another thing I'd add to my silly (and impossible for me to get) wish list is about as far out of my budget as the moon AKA Luna. If I was one of the super-rich who had thousands of dollars to spare, I'd like a new septic drain field and maybe a new septic tank and system. It'd be nice to take a quick shower without water backing up out of the drain, covering my feet.
One of the events I went to was the Florida Renaissance Festival, on March 7th, 2015. It was a little too warm and humid for my taste, so, I wasn't thinking too clearly for most of it, but, I tried to catch some of the acts while enjoying the sweet cider there, but, truth be told, I would have rather had the blueberry beer they served at the Camelot Days Medieval Festival at Topeekeegee Park (AKA TY Park) in Hollywood, Florida.
Another time I went to the Florida Renaissance Festival was on February 8th, 2014, where I met people like Garrett, Steve and Wiz, among many others. While there, I saw acts such as Craic, MooNIE the Magnificent, Celtic Mayhem, Broon, Limey Birds, the Duelists, Trash or Treasure, and Wolgemut. Each of these acts are different, but, they are all entertaining.
Some of the more frequently visited pages that people are looking for here are either listed in the upper left hand corner of this page, or in the featured pages on the right. Quick tip: Click on a Web page's background (at least on my site, it's safe to do so, but, you might get a pop-up ad on other sites) and hit the Home key on your keyboard to go to the top of the page. The rest are on the Site Map page where almost all of my Web pages are arranged in alphabetical order.
You are very welcome. :-)
It may be time for me to give up . . .
After years of trying, of spending so much of my spare time and money in an attempt to make the world a better place, the world and the people in it only seem to get worse. My struggles have left me very tired, weak, frustrated, and, if I was being honest, few would miss me if I was gone. But, I never fit in, anyway . . .
Warning: While I've told a few people about this, already, and tried to warn people about it on different parts of my Web site, there will be increased violence, soon (yes, more). Some of the mass shootings will be done by lone gunmen, while others will be committed by groups of three or more.
Some of the mass shootings sites will be at schools, where the shooter(s) either suffered physical and/or emotional abuse (see my School Violence: What Causes School Violence page for details about that sort of thing, which I started decades ago and gave up on updating it since nobody was listening), doesn't like the skin colour and/or religion of those who attend those schools or they just want easy targets AKA soft targets. Some sites of mass shooting will be parties or bars where loud music is playing. Other sites will be places of work or worship. There will also be mass shootings at stores, both well-known and locally-owned grocery stores. In the latter cases (the places of worship like churches or stores), the shooter(s) chose these sites because those in the neighbourhood were of a specific skin colour and/or religion and were very easy targets, usually only with a security officer or off-duty or retired police officer providing security who was easy to spot.
Of course, those I told about this rolled their eyes at me or judged me solely on my appearance (one was a security officer at a Florida Publix grocery store), but, that always happens. However, when I have to choose between warning people of dangers, like I've done often in the past and getting the usual response or waiting until these things happen, I'll almost always choose the former and not the latter. I've had a Cassandra complex for years!
Right. I said 'almost' didn't I? Well, you'll figure it out, soon enough. After all, some things just aren't believed without enough proof, and, if it sounds too strange, you'll likely be locked up somewhere for 'observation' and if it happens shortly after you tell them about it you'll be arrested, interrogated and probably locked up. And, seriously, when it comes to karma, I'm doing far more for others than people have done for me. Or, at least I'm trying to . . . It's really not my fault when people don't listen.
Choose Your Entrance
☛ For a more complete list, please try the Site Map page, or the Main page, which doesn't list all the pages, but, is more interesting to look at than the Site Map page which is almost all links.
Pictures pages (more on the Site Map page)
Cyberwolfman's Pix #3. Pictures taken in the ActiveWorlds 3D chat program.
Cyberwolfman's Pix #4. Back to the real world. Includes Halloween pictures, party pictures, more pictures of Bloomington-Normal Illinois including events, people, and theaters.
Cyberwolfman's Pix #5. Pictures of fountains, buildings, and people, including some radio D.J.s.
Cyberwolfman's Pix #6. More pictures of Bloomington-Normal Illinois, including a multiple-car accident, skateboarders in a parking garage, pictures of the inside of the nearly totally abandoned College Hills Mall and a picture of the Miller Park lake showing it almost perfectly still and mirror-like.
My next pictures page should include pictures taken in south Florida.
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